I am terrified of finding the day where someone else is my weakness.
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Crushed

I just want to... I want to apologise beforehand. I'm sorry that my past disappointments are going to make me test you... Make me guard myself at times you don't deserve it. Everything that made me doubt this in the past is going to play a big part in how I handle looking for something to prove me wrong. That doesn't mean that I want you to be in the bad end of my uncertainties.
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Self Deception

The last time I tried to keep myself from getting attached... it backfired on me. Badly. It took no less than 6 months for to have that much needed closure. Sometimes what they say is true. The only way to get over someone is either time or someone else. Someone else that makes you realize there's better out there. Do I have issues letting myself fall dependent on someone else? Unbelievably. So I guess I'm trying to tell myself that next time, just... just stop lying to yourself. Because you don't want to get to the point that once you finally accept what's in front of you, it'll be too late.

Vague

Right now I'm in the in-between. Do I move forward and risk the worst... Or do I stop this now while I still have a little control. The thing is, I do know what I want. But one part, probably my practical shoulder, is saying think hard first... It was just a lot nicer when no thinking was involved. But that can't go on for long.
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I think this is the most selfish I've ever been. And I honestly haven't a goddamn clue what to do.