Maybe one reason I haven't put down in words what I've been feeling lately is because... I have this strange superstitious belief that if I express it out loud, the good will disappear. I guess in the past, I correlated good things ending to me saying it out loud to someone else. It sounds kind of dumb, but you gotta do what it takes to keep things in your life right? Even if it's through irrational thoughts. Maybe. But all I will say is that... things happen that you can't help and sometimes you have to let yourself stop thinking so much that you won't find every wrong reason to push it away.
Of course things can't always run 100% smoothly. You can't make everyone happy... I don't want to lose you, but I can't be selfish... If being away from me is what you need, I have to understand that. I'm just sorry things turned out this way. We all know it's nobody's fault but you can't help but feel your gut turn when you know you were a part of someone else's pain... Someone you took into your life permanently. And now, you can't even be a part of their life without hurting them.
Hope for the best? I sure am.
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