I'm ready for this. Sometimes you don't realize what you're missing until you find it again. It's not even a big deal, it's nothing great, but just the fact of being on set again and being around people who remind me so much of myself when I had such motivation. The drive, the passion... I was contacted by someone I met two years ago on the set of Alvin & the Chipmunks (The Squeakquel). In the past two years, he has gotten himself to work for Warner Brothers in their music video department where one of his jobs is to assist in casting. He asked me to be in Yellowcard's new video, and thankfully, it was a day I was off work. He's asked me a few times the last few months, but each time I was scheduled to work already ah. And being there... it made me want more. It made me remember how much I wanted this. It made me re-see the future I've tried to fight so hard for, but lost in the last year due to family troubles, which required me to need a stable job at home, while still balancing it with school. But this was the second moment of epiphany I had.

The first was a couple of weeks ago when I met up an old friend from theatre. We had dinner and it just amazed me to hear all his wonderful stories about being a theatre major in NYU. He's doing what it takes to achieve everything he's dreamed of. Back in high school, we shared these dreams and we helped truly push each other so that we could make these dreams realistic in the future. I told him he will make it into Broadway doing amazing things. He always told me he sees me going really far in the film acting industry with an Oscar in my hand one day. In those days, the future seemed so bright and exciting. It saddens me that I lost sight of that in the last year. Don't get me wrong, a lot a great things has happened in the last year as well, that has contributed to such happiness in my life. Being in an unbelievable relationship with an amazing person has been such a blessing. This relationship has kept my balance with life sane and do-able. But now, I think it's time to add onto this balance. I need to work on myself... in a career I can never long forget about.